Intelligence

Intelligence is the ability
to eat knowledge
digesting it
and storing it
within the brain.

Each bite you take
the body breaks down
sending the nutrition
straight to the boss
and that boss
helpless as it is
confined in its boned cage
it isn’t aware of poison
even if it is
it struggles to rid of it.

All the knowledge seeps
with all the opinions
and all the facts
that are switched
laced of statistics
that are formulated
to make the little brain of ours
a little bit more compatible
a little better at listening
of conforming
of buying the product
with all the products made
there must be a consumer
otherwise it’d all waste
and it’d be our faults no theirs.

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina

I’ll write it.

I’ll write it
because if I speak it
I’ll forget it
I’ll twist it
I’ll ignore you
because I’ll be worried
you won’t hear me
I’ll speak over
I’ll speak louder
so I’d rather write it down
I’m frustrated always
and it’s not you
it’s just my mind
the way it thinks
I can’t leave it behind
these things of me
I can’t just smile
I can’t just laugh
if the whole world is falling
I can’t just jump out of it
I’m in it
and my mind it smashes with it
and these things inside me
they hurt
swimming about
I feel it
gnawing at my mind
the curiosities
and there are days I feel
if I listen
if i sit quietly enough
they’ll tell me
what I need to hear
and then there are other days I talk so loudly
talking over it
because I don’t want to feel it
to feel the frustration
to feel the confusion
to feel every new opinion
and just be saddled by guilt
I hate it
like a wad of gum
sticking my feet to the floor
I just want everything
to swallow it down
because it overwhelms
it is
this mind of mine
of everything
all of it
it is humanity
it is pain that lives.

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina

There is a heart it beats.

There is a heart
it beats
and pushes
it does its work
forced by the boss
that is often over thought
compressed within a prison of bone
it hurts as it expands
it can’t
taking in information
it rids of it
words shredded
as others retained
the truth isn’t
because the brain
it takes in
and lets out
retaining everything
would explode it
trying to remember an old face
accelerating the age
it can’t compute properly
and the heart
it feels what the brain does
quicker it works
skip once
another beat
it’ll keep at it
it must
it has work to do
and friends to keep up
the lungs take in breath
it hurts
the brain says it hurts
it hurts to breathe
it hurts to beat
it just hurts
everything does now
to keep computing
managing everything
hurts.

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina

There is no point.

There is no point
there are only lines
off in all directions
you an step a foot off
and keep on walking
never hitting a point
in which an answer is given
that’ll explain all this
the reason for your thoughts
the reason that it all exists
it just does
could that be
and there is no point
it’ll all come to a death
and parts wont
which it’ll never really end
and each thought
will just mix with others
spreading throughout
without coming to a completion
to a final point
because maybe there isn’t one?

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina

These two eyes.

Two feet upon a rock
in which these two eyes
cannot see all at once
just a small part of rock
and looking up there is sky
and looking down there is grass.

I see human touch
roads paved in cement
houses leaking heat
feeling claustrophobic
confined here
confined by laws
confined by human touch
confined by human need
confined by human greed.

I feel small
because I am
in the essence of life
I am no more than a speck of it
and I feel trapped on this rock
trapped within this human torment
trapped within decades of guilt
of my mind compressed
zipped and tied.

These human words
these human thoughts
I feel confined by it
trapped within it
within feelings
within feeling failure
which is a human word
that I cannot forget.

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina

I want to know life.

I want to know it
I want to understand it
I want to explain it
I want to know life
and I want to know death
not the interpretation of it
not the idea
not in theory
I want to know it
to understand it
to have a tangible thought
not a billion of words
that make up theories
no I want to know it
to understand it
to be a part of it
to grasp in this mind
everything that is
and everything that isn’t
everything in speckles of light
everything that is anything
and that is nothing
I want to understand it
to see it
to touch it
even if it is untouchable
I want to understand it
to know it
to know the answers
even if it isn’t anything
even if reality isn’t
or it is
or if this waking life I’m living
is the sleeping life of the real life form
that is of reality
and this day that I’m living
is really the dream
I’d want to know it
I’d want to speak to it
even if their words are opinions
and their facts are empty
because they are just me
and as confused in all this
as I am myself
I need to know
I want to know
to understand
what my mind is missing
the words that haven’t been created
because the human mind
is still evolving
still turning
still trying
and I’d like to know it
as the universe itself
is craving it.

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina

Dimensional, it a sphere.

There is a circle
dimensional
it is a sphere
afloat out there
other bodies drifted
their hearts haven’t came in
the sun hasn’t reached
hasn’t brought warmth
and the life isn’t.

That sphere out there
living in life
striving as it falls
as it misses
and the minds upon it
are thinking
how do we escape it?

Could they bring closer
the other rocks
chisel them with machines
would our minds
destroy that of what we created
probably
maybe not
I don’t know.

Here on this sphere
we fight for life to be born
we beg for each to get a breath
and when their minds are hurt
and their thoughts are billions
and they can’t center
and they can’t focus
we pop the pills
we scream to surrender
and we miss all their warnings
because once a life is produced
it’s for itself to tend to.

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina

Is there a way to count mistakes.

Is there a way to count mistakes
to measure them
to calculate
in that of fact?

We have this civilization
these laws within boundaries
lines on a map
taken and fought
each part with a set of laws
to reference
to determine our safety
carried off by that of power
is that fact?

I think of mistakes
and I think of failure
of losing
of not having
and I just don’t
feel for this
the way we eat
the way we cover in our clothes
the way we shelter in our homes
and how quickly it can be shredded
how quickly it can be taken
it can be lost
the victim at fault
that’s where we are
that’s how we live.

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina

There is…

There is death
there is not feeling
there is not thinking.

Or there is this
the constant pain of guilt
of what am I doing wrong
living in a world amongst
the mental types
that feel only for themselves
only for their thoughts
taking
and claiming it’s the right thing
the right thing.

It feels painful
I couldn’t live to be like that
I couldn’t take
and I couldn’t force the others to give
I couldn’t reason why it’s alright
which is why I’m here
with little to nothing.

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina

I do not know.

I don’t know if you can solve it
if I can fix it
if we can change it
if that person knows
if that persons solution is the best
I don’t know.

I’m not sure if life is wrong
or if the human condition
can be without flaw
isn’t that what we are
a flaw in life
thinking to give it answers
and it’s evolving
with and without?

Is this just where it is
is there more
in the holes of the universe
is there more lives
more of all of us
duplicates sprouting
I don’t think so
I don’t know
neither do you
neither could you
philosophy
science
we educate
with partial knowledge
we don’t know.

That doesn’t stop the thought
that doesn’t stop the yelling
from telling you you’re wrong
you telling me you’re right
it doesn’t stop
even if we don’t know
even if we can’t know
can’t understand it
it doesn’t stop me
from speaking
and from you clutching upon
the highest of creators
and either way
I’ll never be satisfied with your answers
because I just want it
I just need to know it
even if I can’t know
even if we can’t understand
I need it
and I can’t just take it and leave
and honor and trust
and do for everything
I do not know.

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina