Thinking

Thinking
if it is easy
it seems as if it is
the lungs just have to breathe
the heart just has to pump
the brain just needs to keep
continue thinking
and all the systems will operate
right?

Yet the lungs are often
performing beneath
and the heart is quick
almost to quick
and in the chest
it always aches
as the brain it just keeps
keeps thinking
keeps repeating
keeps reminding me
of all the helpful tips
that have never been a complete solve
because I still question
is it working?

I’m living
therefore pain is a symptom
and the brain is thinking
therefore overwhelmed is a symptom
in which is better than the opposite
if it stopped
I would stop
and I don’t want to
I like to struggle in it
I like to over think it
I hate it
but I need it
and I want it
I want to keep
is that just living
or is that a symptom of being human?

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina