Uncategorized – Temperamentally Tina

To be numb to feeling?

I know sometimes people feel numb to feeling to thinking they just can’t as if their minds are on ice and the coldness is hardening their thoughts that can’t be chiseled out. I’m not numb to feeling I feel itI think it I don’t always want I don’t want to socialize I try to stayContinue reading “To be numb to feeling?”

It fixes nothing.

Charity fixes nothing if it did then we wouldn’t be so broken we wouldn’t have homelessand the higher bits making the middle pick up the scraps from the tables and emptying change from their pockets. Which does nothingsolves nothing because it changes nothing the gesture cements the system reapplying to the cracksthat keep opening everyContinue reading “It fixes nothing.”

Slip from the rules.

Could we just not do whatever we’re doing right now whatever we’ve done in the pastcould we just do something newdoes it exist stillthat concept of newso many ideas writtenso many rules placed can I scratch them outis it possibleto slip from the rulesand create something newI feel a sense of jealousy to those beforeContinue reading “Slip from the rules.”

As my body lays on the ice.

I feel a bit weak several days a weak and my feet stumble as my entire body takes a tumble and I feel a sense of deathalthough I can see my breath as my body lays on the icelater I place my appendage in rice hearing the vibration as it exits hibernation I search forContinue reading “As my body lays on the ice.”

Blending at all times.

Life is a consistency of mistakes a finger on the button it is blending at all times as life is dying it’s joining in and mixing again changing through chemistry can I set that goo on fire renew it write it with redowning the mistakes knowing the pastallowing myself to do more and do lessingestingContinue reading “Blending at all times.”

Thinking

Thinkingif it is easyit seems as if it isthe lungs just have to breathe the heart just has to pump the brain just needs to keep continue thinking and all the systems will operate right? Yet the lungs are often performing beneathand the heart is quickalmost to quick and in the chestit always achesas theContinue reading “Thinking”

Fear; an easy advertiser.

Fear is an easy advertiser a product to sellto cure a feelingthat cannot be shedrather bandaged till it scars. Fear makes a productfeel as if it is lifeand death is without it. Fear allows the level headed to be chained turned into weapons because fear is an impulse that we’re so quick to rid ofbutContinue reading “Fear; an easy advertiser.”

You just keep trying to smile.

You are breathingyou know that because you can see it through the cold your hands are turning colors the needles settling in you know you must be alive even if you’ve seen yourself burieda nightmare manifested by the brain to damper the illness. Although the illness is make believe it’s the pressuresthat were invented notContinue reading “You just keep trying to smile.”

We are breathing.

I’m yelling because I’m exhausted I’m crying because it all hurtsmy brain is overloaded and my eyes are stinging from the tears that wallow in and it’s a shallow pool I’m drowning in they thoughts they keep on breeding I’m a failure it surfaces so often the feeling of never accomplishing or never finishing ofContinue reading “We are breathing.”

Trying to understand

I feel I’ve lived several deaths of this mind as it forgetsas it learns parts are turnedparts are picked parts are neglected. They turn they rot and they die offthose deaths they happen often in this brain of mine I can see so clearly feel it so heavily and then I just don’t I changeContinue reading “Trying to understand”