Tina – Page 9 – Temperamentally Tina

A huge home down a sink hole.

Let me say thisyou’re not rightyou’re not wrong. Someone out therelikes yousomeone out theredoesn’t. You’re never rightyou’re never wrongeven murder is objective to who is rightand who is wrong. Fighting for survivalit’s a twisted place who side do you pick? Can I stand up and say no onenone of it? I don’t agree. Stop destroyingContinue reading “A huge home down a sink hole.”

Pushing my eyes from their sockets.

There is so much it’s living in hereand I can’t get it outbecause every thought I release creates several more to replace. It hurts when I thinkand I have to write it downIt’ll slip out tripping my feetclimbing it’s way back in through my ears again. I must write it down on paperand set itContinue reading “Pushing my eyes from their sockets.”

For now I’ll keep them home.

All these feelingsall the timeall these thoughtsthey just keep coming! My brain is fillingand my lungs can’t filter out all the water my eyes are forming that my skin is taking back inthrough the pores. I just can’t stop it all. I can’t control youI can’t control meI can’t control them. I’m terrified if IContinue reading “For now I’ll keep them home.”

You’re struggling.

You’re thinking over workedover tiredyou can’t sleepbecause you’re thinking.Did you speak the right words?Did you write down the right notes?A few pieces lost and you’re struggling because you’ve been taught perfection by an instructor that isn’t nor are youand you’re fighting. You’re screaming internally because these human traits are killing youthis need to listen butContinue reading “You’re struggling.”

I’m going to die either way.

We always want to bethe very bestthe very best wonderful and I am not and I don’t need to ne I just need to breathe even if my lungs aren’t as strong and my heart overbeats a little to fast I am just living even if it’s not at your best and my words aren’tContinue reading “I’m going to die either way.”

I might feel differently.

I’m not going to be the same tomorrowas I am today.I might feel differentlyabout what provokes laughter in meand I might cry over something that once brought happinessbecause each day is different and our feelings they changethey adapt. I might find wordsI’ve used are insensitiveand at other times I may not even care if theyContinue reading “I might feel differently.”

Exist, not known.

I will only be me living within a thought inside my brainam I real? Within here I am outside I do not existI am not known. Thanks for reading. -Temperamentally Tina

I think of nothing.

When I’m in the quiet and my thoughts are left alone to think that’s when the thought of death creeps in and the idea of nothing terrifies me confuses me. I think of nothing closing my eyes and even then I can seeimages my brain projectsmemories I’ve rememberedideas I create pictures that play I can’tContinue reading “I think of nothing.”

You live to die.

You live to die.You start lifewithout account for your thoughtsdo we think as infants?Even if we hadI don’t remember nowso does it even matter?We act on instinctand our bodies growwithout a thought deciding if it shouldit just does. Then we begin to rememberfragments of eventsfeelings we’ve had even if we can’t remember the wordsor theContinue reading “You live to die.”

Choke on the words.

I am not blessed and your words are only that I smile at it I listen without response. I’m atheistfor that I must choke on the wordsbecause religion is everywhereon the countersas I wash my handspamphlets buried in piles of clothesI must fold in our lawsin our regulations. I must choke on it. Your inspirationContinue reading “Choke on the words.”