New is a longing.

Will it ever beas I want it to be?Each word shitterthan the lastand I’m stucknew ideasnever finishedleft partially executed slipping out of the brainthe pages not emptyalthough the words re-read come out pointlessnew is a longing in which keeps me deletingswitching because different is a difficulty in which I’m trying and I’m feeling is impossibleandContinue reading “New is a longing.”

We’re stopping here.

We’re walking backwardsstopping at a stand we bow to the worst of ourselvesthe worst of our pastthe worst of thosethat already hit death we’re becoming themreliving their hateclothing ourselves in their fearwe’re stopping hereand I have no explanation as to why? Why can’t we accept a newnesswhy can’t we live in a world that isContinue reading “We’re stopping here.”

Can’t explain itself.

Everything in, everything out.Shaking…The body is feeling. The brain is taking in,the brain is putting out.A response to the environment.Can the body relax?No it can’t,now always not every time.There are many words,many thoughtsand the still the brain can’t explain.It can’t tell the body why,why it feels the stress.It’s overwhelmed and can’t explain itself. Thanks forContinue reading “Can’t explain itself.”

I have thoughts I believe to be my owngoing back through conversations whom said it first,me or you? Are we all tied up together speaking wordswriting them downtrying to understand reading through researchI’ve been told the resolveyet I’m now curious on howwhat it felt to find what it felt to live through. The terror ofContinue reading

It’ll keep breathing.

I don’t knowwhat this life has planned I’m just alivethat’s what I know and in my death it’ll keep breathing as my heart stops other will continue to pumpand more will be discovered because life keeps growing it adds more as it deletes out parts that aren’t quite efficient creating foodfeeding upon each other. DoContinue reading “It’ll keep breathing.”

Living in my brain.

Living in my brainhas been difficult I’d rather be herethan there or anywhere else although it hurtsalways taking in listening trying to interrupt to get a word out a thoughtthrown amongst the restit feels anxious and upsetit gets angered when all noises hit at once and the quiet is obliterated it swells upand it burstsContinue reading “Living in my brain.”