Living in my brain.

Living in my brain
has been difficult
I’d rather be here
than there
or anywhere else
although it hurts
always taking in
listening
trying to interrupt
to get a word out
a thought
thrown amongst the rest
it feels anxious
and upset
it gets angered
when all noises hit at once
and the quiet is obliterated
it swells up
and it bursts out of my mouth
with words of annoyance and hurt
because all the noise
it’s to much
I can’t keep up
and my brain
it doesn’t often rest
it gets overwhelmed
trying to hear
trying to make itself heard
and there’s so much
everything at once
many brains to compete
and I know life isn’t competition
yet isn’t it?
To eat
to breathe
to drink water
isn’t it taking from another?
Every bite
every breath
every sip
even if
we don’t think about it.

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina