I function in make believe.

I function in make believe
within environments
I’ve been told are real
although all human-made
and scripted by the dead
readjusted until I fail
and when I do
I’m left perplexed.
Why do I care?
It’s all pretend
and I don’t agree
with most opinions I’ve heard.
Still my heart feels full
not in a feel good way
more in a my heart ate a rotted meal
of stress
world issues
finances
and everything else sprinkled in
kind of way.
Now it just hurts
and it feels as if
fed any more
it’ll grow and burst
from the walls of it’s prison
until there is nothing left of it.

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina

How do you feel?

How do you feel?

I feel alright I guess.

Just alright?

I have aches
and my thoughts
they keep growing
so quickly.
My eyes often cry out
and my mouth can’t keep up
with the thoughts
and when I speak
I often stumble
and when I walk
my toes dive downward
and I trip
on myself.

So yea I feel alright
it’s the most
a body can ask for.
Right?

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina

I don’t believe in you.

I don’t believe in you.
Being honest
as I release those words
a fear resides within me.
What if I’m wrong?
And I think
oh well
I don’t believe in you.
Even if you do exist
I don’t have faith in you.
I don’t have faith in your choices.
I don’t have faith in the desires
you’ve created
and I rather not bow down to you.

Instead I believe in humanity
stripped of the politics
stripped of religious affiliates
stripped of gender roles
stripped of stereotypes
stripped of the cash
stripped of the clothes that cover us
and I invest in people.
I invest my words
I invest my brain
to opening the compassion
that I’ve lost.
Broken by the news
broken by our rules
and broken by our hate,
I know we can find
a solution
that connects
and breaks us free of our chains.

I bow to us
living down here
and I say I’m willing
to be kind
and I’m willing to invest in you
and I hope your willing to invest in us
and break the chains
bounded around our necks
by whomever is lurking over us.

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina

Remember to live.

Remember to live!
I already exist
why do I need a reminder to live?
If I’m breathing by definition
I’m living.
Now if you’re talking in terms
of a fulfilling life
those terms aren’t equitable.
What you view as fulfilling
I view as insufferable
and what you view as happiness
I view as mediocrity
and numbing
to my mental capacity
because a part from the necessities
food, water, and oxygen
our desires
grow differently
and desire is determined…
Desire is determined by what?
I don’t know
which is my truest truth of all.
Whomever knows that answer
would have the ability
to control everyone
and I myself am not seeking power
rather I’m relishing each breath
and clinging to my own desires
until that capability is taken from me.

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina

You are self centered.

You are
self centered,
selfish,
and make everything about you.

What?
And you don’t?
Saying those words
just speaks to me
that you are all that matters.
In other words
You’re saying I am nothing
and my feelings
rate beneath you
because you are the center of the universe?

There you go
making it all about you again.

Yes I am because I am me
and you are nothing
in terms of my existence.
I’d still be alive without you.

To me you don’t matter.

Good that means
you’ve been listening to me
Thanks.

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina

Confined to a couch.

A sickness inside
confined to a couch
listening to the tunes
of the birds chirping about
and the laughter
of others at play
sinking deeper within the couch
a bite upon the cheek
and tears they drip
as the little creature
struggles to speak
begging to be set free
another nibble
and the jailer won’t budge
for the sickness is to great
a single movement
and they may burst.

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina

A comfortable zone.

50% the effort
a comfortable zone
to fit myself within
enough effort to finish a task
and I break away
allowing myself within the worlds
residing in my brain.
The buildings growing larger
built and destroyed within minutes
switching and changing with my moods
which rapidly change.

Development has large plans
that I must fill
here in my home base.
The place is kept safe
as I block out
all the hate
all the dreadful bodies
walking about
begging for more
begging to be heard
and in the building within my brain
those bodies never make it it
as my body continues a task
the words don’t quite formulate
because I’m busy.

I am not here anymore
if I haven’t spoken for several minutes
I’m in another building
creating away.
If my body is moving
and I’m mumbling
that means I am not here
please do not disturb
just leave me
to be me.
Thanks.

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina

A sickness inside.


It started off as an invasion
ships in the shape of opinions
carrying words as cargo
missiles shot off
loaded of angst and hostility.

Through the openings
the missiles created
the ships entered
allowing the habitants to wander
off the boats they went.

As they drilled their words internally
busting open the doors
to the place the brain stayed
they began a total invasion.

As others invaders made their way to the heart
cutting holes large enough to sleep in
cubbies to keep them warm
a place to feel at home
as the rhythmical beat
put them to sleep.

In time as the invaders
relieved their waste
and set up a permanent space
the blood began to change
rustic and smelly
and the insides shifted
opening up space
slowly the invasion
involved into
a sickness inside.

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina

I’ll deduct it to 25% effort.

Here is 50%
if you continue spitting in my face
I’ll deduct it to 25% effort.
Half the effort was a successful attempt
and your spit filled
childish rant
is deducting
my willingness to serve you.
If you continue
I may walk out
and we already know
half the workforce
already has.

Unmasked
with your nastiness
filling the air
and you expect me to care
and honestly I gave 50% the effort
and still you mumbled
and you fumbled
with the clothing on the counter
and I say no.

As your partner lets you walk out
as they stay behind
allowing you to drive the car
to the door
because we know walking
is beneath the average
with their muffin tops
confirming they’re not savage.
No, they’re plenty fed.

The transaction finished
with a stay safe
as I mumble back beneath my mask
unkind words
for I am not the one
that needs to be reminded
to stay safe.

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina

I ask for water.

Wait, it’s funny to exercise?
What your poking fun
because I wake up
and I burn off the tired fat?
Wait, it’s funny to order the lighter option
and it’s socially acceptable
to eat an entire days worth
within one meal
if theirs an adult drink at the table?
I ask for water.
That’s funny water.
I thought it’s what our bodies need
you know H20
without the extras.
I know I’m a joke right?

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina