To be numb to feeling?

I know sometimes people feel numb
to feeling
to thinking
they just can’t
as if their minds are on ice
and the coldness is hardening their thoughts
that can’t be chiseled out.

I’m not numb to feeling
I feel it
I think it
I don’t always want
I don’t want to socialize
I try to stay inside
and when people speak back
I turn
because feeling it
can be overwhelming
trying to understand all point of view
the rights
the wrongs
and never being able to agree
or disagree
because right isn’t factual
not in the complexity of all the thoughts
I just want to be numb.

Slice open my skull
take out my brain
place it upon a block of ice
till it numbs
the throbbing stops
the thinking stops
then please return it
letting it warm
within my skull
and as it melts
maybe it’ll feel a little less?

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina