I get angry.

I get angry
at the simplest gestures
and I’m trying to stay in
locking the insults within my brain.

Please don’t make me speak out loud
if I do it’ll break
the barrier I placed
to keep myself calm
and when it does
all those insults
I’ve compiled
well they will fall out
hitting you quickly
and I’d rather not be that person.

A snarky person with a remark for everything
that is who I am
although I try to keep it in
because my temper isn’t rational
and I get angered frequently
and I may say all the wrong things
well I know I will.

Please let me stay quiet
it is better for the both of us
because when it slips out
the words are replaced by guilt
inside myself
and the pain of guilt
is worst than the pain
of holding anger in.

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina