Unique, the experience of life.

I have a difficult time
being ok with it
with most of it
I wake up
because I’m alive
I’d rather stay asleep
although to stop dreaming
is incomprehensible to my brain
how could I not exist
I wouldn’t know
the brain would stop
and it would all stop?

It’s that idea
that theory
that belief
that when my brain stops sending signals
my hearts stops beating
my lungs stops breathing
it is over
and I have nothing
and I’m nothing
that makes me value life
if I lived
in expectation of death
of the life after this
then I’d neglect
how unique
the experience of life is.

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina