I thought it would disappear.

I thought it would disappear
way deep inside me
and at this I’d be different
more comfortable
less in a panic
able to listen in group settings
without my ears over heating
and my brain glitching
only it isn’t
I’m still like this
only now I can accept it
and accept that others
will make judgement
and I can’t stop it
and it’s alright to be misunderstood
because they have the right
to dislike
to be bothered
and I have the right to be this
a person that panics
that shies away from conversation
because I’m talking in my head
uncomfortable to be there
laughing on the inside
as my face is in a frown
it’s just a face
and it’s just a resting place
it’s ok
and if it bothers that’s fine to.

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina