Breathing I can do.

Breathing I can do
partially
take in deep breaths
let a few out
apparently there is a proper way
through the stomach
I breathe through my chest
it’s the human way
the complicated aspects of it all
the logistics of everything
we can’t just breathe
we can’t just relax
we have to do it this way
not that way
sit on a mat
take deep breaths
listen to calming music
all this shit
is why I’m not calm
all this extra
is why I can’t relax
why I over think
am I doing it right
sitting on a floor
sitting in the grass
no mat
I’m a savage
my mind keeps over thinking it
I feel ill in the brain
heavy in the heart
and poisoned
moving slowly
breathing sporadically
sickened by this human toxicity.

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina