Death means zero senses

I think about death
and I panic
the anxiety claws within my brain
ridding me of rationality
what is it to not exist
to not see
to be blind
although your aware
you can hear
you can smell
death means zero senses
the brain no longer thinks
the body goes cold
and shits itself
of the last bit of waste
as it all decays
and eventually that one person
the person you were
totally forgotten by you
and you’ll never know
maybe you were a naked body in a room
as others gathered and wept
maybe your ashes in an urn
you’ll never know
death is the greatest punishment of life
struggling for decades
to survive all the emotions
and fight through all the thoughts
and then you die
and it’s over
and you never know what rest felt like
because your brain turns off
and you no longer exist.

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina