We fill it…

I spent years of time
trying to understand why
and then I accepted we all die
and in that fight of life
we fill it
we fill it with pretty things
we fill it with words
we fill it with education
we fill it with pride of home
we fill it.

In that time
I forgot to look at myself
thinking why are they so cruel
why must they compete
why can’t we get along?

I’ve accepted the truth
I’ve been cruel
I’ve been competitive
I haven’t wanted to get along
because although I’ll die
I fill it
I fill it with pretty things
I fill it with with words
I fill it with education
I fill it with pride of home
I fill it.

Because of that I crumble
I dread days because I’m overwhelmed
and I’ve accepted I’m going to die someday
and when I get there
what am I going to remember
the pride I had for my home
the pretty things I cannot take
words spurted out of mouths
education
the pride of my home
no
I’ll remember the time I wasted
competing
hating
struggling for more
and realize I’ve wasted an entire life
buying into societies hype.

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina