I feel the swelling.

I feel the swelling
beneath my scull
and I know
if it was cracked open
there would be no abnormalities
no scar tissue to see
for I feel the intensity
of my thoughts
and thoughts
don’t leave physical residue
it’s all emotional
and it’s all in there
in that squishy part
no one can see
not even I
although I feel it
and my heart beats
so quickly
and my lungs
they inhale and exhale
improperly
through my chest
and not my stomach
insanity it must be
to know
you can’t do
the most simplest
absent of thoughts tasks
a task your brain
initiates automatically
and yet still I fail.

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina