Is winning meant to be misery?

You don’t have to agree
it’s alright to feel it
to feel the emotion
the confusion
of human conflicts
understanding it
I cannot.

Always trying
to tug the chains in their own favor
deleting and adding
rules to govern
trying to be more willing
in which they’re all
trying to stake claim
and win
and what I can’t understand
is what they’re winning?

I never found happiness in stress
I never found happiness in harming others
I never found happiness in hurtful words
because as I say them
as I think them
I feel a pain within my brain
hating the jealous part
hating the part that judges
hating the part that’s critical
of actions of others
and actions of myself
and I’ve always wondered
where is the happiness
in standing above the rest?
I only observe stress
and pain in all the bodies
above and below.
So please tell me who is ever winning?
Is winning meant to be misery?

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina