Rarely noticed.

I’m rarely noticed
rarely catch an eye
or maybe I’m just solid water
and the closer a body gets
it freezes
and their hands freeze up
so they distance
to warm up
because I’m cold
uninviting
because I have strict guidelines
distances I’ve followed
years before it became protocol
and they want warmth
and they want lies
because lies keep them feeling nice
and keep them feeling pretty
and living this body positivity
that only counts if they don’t try
if you don’t hit the gym
if you don’t run miles
if you don’t eat less
because those of us
who truly try
we’ve become the weirdos
often told we’re lucky
our metabolisms are fast
and my eyes roll so fast
I have to place a hand to my face
to force them back in
feeling sad
for those that truly believe
weight loss is impossible
because it isn’t.

Thanks for reading.
-Temperamentally Tina